Going Fast

For Heike

I've been far away for quite a while
And now this train back home I ride
I'll be seeing you but still be blue and want to cry
And wonder why

And later in your arms I'll sink to sleep
But I don't think sleep will be that deep
Because something's gone, and we're holding on
To a love that dies
One bit a time

I don't want it all to happen
But it don't seem I'll have a say
It used to be most serious matter
Which has somehow slipped away

And at night in bed words are coming to my head
That would kill it with the sunrise yet to come
I snap back awake thinking, for god's sake
Bite your tongue!

But some sound has escaped I fear
It still lingers in the night
And I can hear you ask, "hon is everything alright?"
I try to smile and say, "I think it might
"But I'm not yet quite so sure..."
And then you are near whispering in my ear,
"Let us see what we can do."

And it turns out to be quite okay
But it only lasts so long
And afterwards I'd like to say
Is this how to carry on?
Why do we pretend?
Why not let it end?
It will never be the way it was
It all was there, but though it's unfair
Time has passed

And now somehow I don't need this stranger's love
Somehow it sure feels I've had enough
So is it really gone
No not yet, it still runs on
But love, it's going fast

Well you can't deny that something's weak
About the way we passed this time
No thought of you at all all week
Instead of phone calls every night

Well okay our jobs are both giving us hell
But can love really suffer in this way
It's alright and great everytime we're close
But it's okay to be away

And then we shrug and say that we're glad I'm there
But I feel that's not quite true
There are lots of things I enjoy with you
But there are others I could do

So tell me please
Is there anything you'd miss
If you spent another night with me
Because if there is I'd hate you to miss it
Just because of me

Ten thousand times I've declared my love
But the last few times I lied
And should you want to say you did not realize
Would you look me in the eye
I might be wrong
Are you moving on from me
Has the final act yet begun
Because if it has let's not make a fuzz
Let's move on

Cause now somehow I don't need this stranger's love
Somehow it sure feels I've had enough
So is it really gone
No not yet, it still runs on
But love, it's going fast

I've been far away for quite a while
And somehow still it makes me smile
To think how we'd be between you and me
But I think it might
Soon make me cry

And the time has almost come by now
To meet again, and now this I vow
I'll respect your love, so if that's enough
In breaking up
I'll be doing my best

Somehow I don't need this stranger's love
Somehow it sure feels I've had enough
So is it really gone
No not yet, it still runs on
But love, it's going fast

Feb '98. We didn't break up after all.


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